One Last Brain Cell to Waste



            We’re almost there aren’t we? Time flies by pretty fast, huh? Three quarters down, one more to go. Just one single push left and our days in Junior High will be over soon. Then again, we’ll get onto another chapter in our lives, Senior High we’re coming for you!

            I got to admit that this quarter has been the most stress I’ve endured during this school year. It’s been hard to focus and concentrate on doing school work due to me being all drained out of life almost every single day. It’s true, I haven’t been motivated as much or maybe not even anymore, I guess. Honestly nowadays, every single thing, whether it’s something small and/or big, it irritates me. No matter how shallow nor deep a situation is, I just can’t pull myself together and do what I have to do on that certain situation that I am seated on. With that said, that definitely includes my school life as well.

            School. It’s just burning me out at this point. All it gave me for the past school year and today is nothing but immense pain. Well not really, it’s more of a situation wherein I cannot handle things as efficient as before. There’s been a lot of activities going on and it’s been rattling on my mind ever since day one. All I can say is that I am mentally and emotionally drained in life – school life included.

            As I reminisce through the past weeks and months of school, it bothers me actually. For most of those days were just giving me more of a reason to give up on myself. Sounds exaggerated, but it’s what I feel, I just wanted to let that out. It’s not like I hate school in general, It’s how the school manages us, the students. We have to consider the fact that not all students can handle everything at ease, for others cannot due to obvious reasons. Therefore, I can say that I am included on those whom cannot cope as easily as the others.


            Either way, let’s cut to the chase, shall we? Regarding the lessons in ICT, it includes the community-based research, wherein most of our attention was focused on. It wasn’t that bad for I had group mates to do this certain activity with. We had our highs and lows, even had minor fights – more like misunderstandings though. Despite that, we still managed to pull it off and we were all satisfied of its outcome. Although, upon knowing we had research-related activities in ICT, I was frustrated. But I am quite grateful that it wasn’t as complicated as the actual Research II subject that we have this school year. Furthermore, I have learned quite a few things. And that includes the following: different categories and components of community-based research, sitemaps and of course, the blogs. I am not new to the word sitemap, though I didn’t know much about it until now. It actually gives a visualization of the structure of a website. To its purpose, elements and even its types – I’ve gained valuable information of the said topic.

            As of the blogs, I am getting sick of it. Although, whether I like it or not, I have no choice but to do what’s been told to do. I use to be so hyped up about the blogs, but now, I just want it to end. I am in a situation wherein I don’t really care as much. I miss my old self whom wanted to finish work right on the bat. The old me whom had the slightest bit of hope and motivation within her. Now? I am nothing but a below average girl that has low self-esteem, no motivation, drained to core type of person.

            Despite the dark path that I am in, I still ought to surpass these said challenges for that’s how life works. Indeed, I have mountains of work to do every day. It may not seem like it to most people, well I’m sorry. I am not cut for your standards, I don’t even know what’s wrong with me at this point. I am just scared, frustrated and lonely. Though, I hide it for the sake of those I love and care for.

            Moreover, I warmly welcome the 4th Quarter with open arms, despite me not wanting to. I’ll try to continue what I’ve started and I am looking forward to what’s in store. I am still thankful for this subject, for it would definitely help me in many ways when it comes to Senior High. Yes, I may be drained, I may be burnt out – I will still strive for the better.


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